mara interview

today mara short-listed the name for its interview..i thought that its easy to get to the interview (i mean only GO FOR AN INTERVIEW, first stage meh), but proven im wrong..some of my friends fail to qualify for the interview..as i first log in with my ic (920*22-**-565*), it says that "PERMOHONAN ANDA TIDAK BERJAYA"..OMG, TERKEJUT SGT!! ok, i try again , NOW wthout those sengkang..alhamdulillah lucky dat i didnt passed out at the first attempt..im qualified to go for the interview.... 13th april, venue::shah alam... hope Allah permudahkan urusan aku...doakan my success for the interview.

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aku kat kg ny....ade knduri..
-today, for one thing, baru kukenal lady ga-go yg disebu-sebut oleh member2 kat fb..ku igtkan they'al pronounce lady gaga in kelantan version..rpe-rpenye, lady ga-go is a f******, b******* gay..omg, dsgusting gler tgk his profile!!!!!! omg,save our future generation frm a person like hm..

pwtc n the mall tip t0e

late post>> sunday's
woke up earlier than usual...thought i got driving class lol...cari baju, iron... my mom was going for her aerobic class ... tp i siap lambat n mnx my mom to pick the later class for the aerobic..haha.. lucky enough that i went back to my room and took a glance at my driving class appoinment slip...lol, it suppose to be on 19th...ngehehhe..sian my mom coz da tlambat utk kelas aerobik..and sian aku sbb kna marah ngan mak ak ..hehe...its ok...my fault.

then, at noon..i logged in for fb..some of my old friends were talking about karnival mara n facon?? umm, i didnt take notice of it before... but thought its worthy to go tho... i asked my parents as i intended to go there with Ain (my sis) by train... but my dad suggested my mom to drive there..so the rest of my family went to pwtc for karnival mara (didnt go for the facon coz that emboldened on ipts)... oh gosh, upon arrival, TRAFFIC CONGESTION! police traffic did a roadblock at the flyover to pwtc entrance. sure enough, cars are not moving.. mom decided to park at The Mall then we walked to pwtc.
hmm..the PWTC expo was no diff tho than the one i went at Mid Valley.. in fact, frankly speaking, i like the latter even better. the Mara officer told me bout the spc:

-its a loan, not really a scholarship... the amount to be paid back depends on the students' performance
-MARA 'll not giving any special advantage to MRSM's students.. Oh, dianaktirikan !!
-it'll cnsider the countries the applicants chose, and we should know well enough bout the particular countries and the Uni. of course.

aah..i even met Naimy (ex-cubemate) there (first booth)..

later on, we went to The MAll.. Shopped some clothing for my attire.. i didnt like the first two shirts he had first self-chosen..so i bought a jacket for him... haziq, dunt forget to thank me yea..hahaha..
aah... then, went to browse for scholl shoes, but none there are of my ideal size.. hmm...got to to klcc lar later for the shoes.. aah, teringat tyme pegi kedai accesories... ak, ain ngan aziq pkai sunglass yang kedai tu jual n bantai snap2 gmbar ..haha.. nk upload kat fb tp malas r..nnt jew r... n hei, i just got another brand craze lar..rse cam gilerkan soda fashion plak,...

shopping punye shoping..penat btol..so lbeyh kurang pukul 8 kew 9 malan ntah, we left for home. hari yang penuh

its beats slowing down lest it'll collapse

euphoria or dysphoria??
alhamdulillah..it may not be the fact i/ve been dreaming for...but thats the best Allah has given me.... hikmah i could think of~ he doesnt want to have ujub in my heart.

CONJECTURE...


i cried at my first glance of the slip.. i got 7a+ and 3a...and just imagine my initial feeling as i got to know that the 3 "bertuah punye subjects" are english, biology, and sejarah!. Allah knows how disappointed i am at thinking the fact that the subjects i slacked on are those super related to course im taking aftrwrds (medic.)..i was even worried to get know that the number of students getting straight A was a myriad.
"sure NUMBER OF STRAIGHT a'S STUDENTS ARE MYRIAD..BUT NUMBER OF SCHOLARSHIPS NOPE!"


but then my grandma told me stories bout her last time Haji in Macca. she said that upon reaching there, as she and the rest wanna pray, the first thought they had was that thay would not have the space to be in the saf. but later on, as people all stand up and prepare for solat, there'll be space, much, much initially unforeseenable space to place all the jamaah.. allah eases their path for an ibadah by sparing the space for'em..to be truth, my tears brimmed to think how i have been stupid for not trustng Allah on the rezki he's going to bless on me~ i might not see the chance, but He has sure spared one for me, the very best in fact. take my life as ibadah, and it'll be eased~

ANYWAY, THANX TO THOSE CONGRATULATING ME FOR THE RESULT~ mak, ayah, cg nazimah,juniors (FARUL, IZUDDIN, FAIROZ, INTAN, n sooooo many to be listed), lutfi sunbae(who sms from US), ali sunbae, naimy (ex-cubemate), beloved ex-classmates (erly (she scored even better that i did), ghazalian (ahah, syamim, niza, luqman, n cepek...we got d same rzt!)), sadiy (including your words rgarding d oversea thingy as well..BFF), nadia (cngratez to you dear), mak chu ina, and many many more.......................


special to niza, fera, syamim, faiz hakimi, haniff, syahrin, cerul, paan, and daus..
thanx for the hangout moments ya (kfc and bowling thing)..



haha...i even left my sijil and exam slip at mc donald at where i waited you guyz... d mc donald called maktab, and maktab called my dad's pejabat saying that "anak en ada masalah"... poor my parents thinkng i've been in serious trouble..huhu.... suck of me for creatingthe chaos for my silliness... after all,11 mac DID have so many to be held as reminiscenceS in my life =)

the day

owh, counting...counting...3,2,1....bedebab0o!!!

fear? nervous? dislike?i could note millions in my life..perhaps i should call them my syndroms or..phobias??

fear? nervous? dislike?i could note millions in my life..perhaps i should call them my syndroms or..phobias??



_cats>
afraid that they might bite me..ouch!






_boys>
frankly speaking im scared of boys in my age, 'll taking longer time to be close with them compared to those younger or older..strange huh?







_fruits>
i'd given my fruit suppy during "zaman skewl asrama" to my friends





_kenduri>
these are those which specifically need me to "menggembling tenaga" as well.. not hating coz i need to work, but i cant work.. i just dont know how... plus, i think im born wif facts that i can do a job but PLEASE...not in havoc or fast pace..so just cant work in urge or force from others. sorry





_formal as the head>
i cant handle a formal meeting. i can be in discussion with friends, but to chair a formal one, to give instructions, to make them wanna work with me...i have zero cnfident for that.. i just dunt like the whole formal atmosphere...it'll make me prethink and think and post-think t0o much...oh, i really, really want to change this!!!!


SAVE THE STRONGEST FOR THE LAST.. NOW THIS IS IT::.

_i*a*a* f*r a *r*i*e
sorry, its my biggest fear that'll remain a secret..and i'll pray to Allah so he can guide into my utter soul mission to make that perish.