Mahu atau tak mahu? Tu je.

Jalan punya jalan, tersinggah satu blogpost tertulis: 

Selalunya, “InshaAllah, kalau ada masa lapang saya akan….”
Sepatutnya, “InshaAllah, saya akan lapangkan masa untuk…”

Zaaas tak nana?

Aku selalu rasa kalau ada anugerah peribahasa terbaik, yang patut menang pastinya "hendak seribu daya tak hendak seribu dalih".

To change from "impossible to i am possible". 

What it takes really, is an intention to want something.

Ingat lagi saat adam termakan buah larangan?

Keazaman tak kuat, itu sebabnya, kata Tuhan.

Old couple

Old couples can be so cute.
Today, a husband and wife came in to the cardiology clinic.
They are in their late 80s.

The husband has listed more than ten questions on a piece of paper regarding his heart problems.
Very basic questions, but that showed how he really tried  to understand more about his own body's problem.

He asked permissions every now and then before he prodded his questions to Dr Shipley, the registrar doctor running that afternoon clinic.
Sometimes, he apologized that he got more questions to ask.

Next to him, his wife was holding a paper and a pen.
Sometimes, she stopped the doctor for spelling.
"Is it s-i-n-u-s?", she asked when Dr Shipley mentioned about the sinus rhythm of the heart.
"How do you spell the name of the valve?"
"M-i-t-r-a-l", Dr Shipley slowly spelt out, as he told them about the leaking valve the husband has.

Towards the end of the consultation,
they thanked the registrar doctor and looked very much satisfied.
They asked him to thank Dr Sandilands, my consultant under whom the husband was cared for.

I'm impressed and entertained.

Firstly, they were keen to ask what they wanted to know. And it makes perfect sense, doesn't it? Every patient should aim to understand more about what's wrong about their body. Bagus pakcik.

Secondly, the pakcik or atuk was not reluctant at all to ask his basic questions. His questions were funny at times. But he asked what he needed to ask. And that's what I should learn from him. In fact, in any situation, what is basic to one person is not basic to everyone. We need to respect the fact that all of us are heroes and zeroes in different fields.

Sometimes we care too much about what others would think if we ask or do things which are deemed silly by others. Well. Until we realize that life is short. You do what you need to do. You ask what you need to ask so that you know what you need to know.

Thirdly, the scene of a husband asking questions and a wife writing down the doctor's answers was just so adorable.

8 Things Every Person Should Do Before 8 A.M.

Life is busy. It can feel impossible to move toward your dreams. If you have a full-time job and kids, it’s even harder.

How do you move forward?

If you don’t purposefully carve time out every day to progress and improve — without question, your time will get lost in the vacuum of our increasingly crowded lives. Before you know it, you’ll be old and withered — wondering where all that time went.

As Harold Hill has said — “You pile up enough tomorrows, and you’ll find you are left with nothing but a lot of empty yesterdays.”

Read more at

https://medium.com/@benjaminhardy/8-things-every-person-should-do-before-8-a-m-cc0233e15c8d

Quran verses and Hadith shared in Tarbiyah Dzatiyah book

Mind blowing quran verses and Hadith shared in Tarbiyah Dzatiyah book written by Abdullah bin Abdul Aziz al Aidan:

"Sesungguhnya Allah membela orang-orang yang telah beriman."

(Al-Hajj : 38)

“Dan orang yang berusaha berjuang kepada agama Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan memimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami, dan sesungguhnya Allah adalah berserta orang yang berusaha membaiki amalannya.”

(Al-Ankabut : 69)

" Barangsiapa akhirat menjadi obsesinya, maka Allah menjadikan semua urusannya lancar, hatinya kaya, dan dunia datang kepadanya dalam keadaan tunduk. Dan barang siapa dunia menjadi obsesinya, maka Allah mengacaukan semua urusannya, menjadikannya miskin dan dunia datang kepadanya sebatas yang ditakdirkan untuknya." 

(H.R Ibnu Majah)

Our dream for Paradise is a dare and possibility 

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan bersabar dan dengan (mengerjakan) sembahyang; kerana sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang yang sabar.”

(Al-Baqarah : 153)

"Jagalah Allah, niscaya Dia akan menjagamu, jagalah Allah niscaya engkau akan mendapati-Nya di hadapanmy."

 (H.R Tirmidzi)

"Luar biasa urusan seorang mu'min, semua urusannya baik dan itu tidak berlaku pada siapapun selain orang mu'min. Jika ia mendapatkan kesenangan, ia bersyukur dan itu baik baginya. Dan, jika ia mendapatkan musibah, ia bersabar dan itu baik baginya."

(H.R Muslim)

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bertakwalah kepada Allah dan hendaklah setiap diri memperhatikan apa yang telah diperbuatnya untuk hari esok (akhirat)."

(Al-Hasyr: 18)

---Maksud ayat ini menurut Ibnu Katsir, adalah hisablah diri kalian sebelum kalian dihisab. Lihatlah amal-amal soleh yang telah kalian tabung untuk diri kalian pada hari kembali dan pertemuan kalian dengan Tuhan. Ketahuilah bahawa Allah mengetahui seluruh perbuatan dan semua kondisi kalian. Tidak ada sesuatupun pada kalian yang tidak diketahui Allah.

"Orang cerdas (berakal) iaitu orang yang menghisab dirinya dan beramal unutk akhirat. Dan orang yang lemah adalah orang yang menundukkan dirinya kepada hawa nafsunya dan angan-angan kepada Allah."

(H.R Tirmidzi)

Quotes from Tarbiyah Dzatiyah book

Mind blowing quotes from Tarbiyah Dzatiyah book written by Abdullah bin Abdul Aziz al Aidan:

"Sejumlah orang terkecoh oleh angan-angan mendapatkan ampunan, lalu mereka meninggal dunia tanpa sempat bertaubat. Seorang di antara mereka berkata: "Aku berbaik sangka kepada Tuhanku." Ia telah berbohong, karena bila ia berbaik sangka kepada Allah tentu ia akan berbuat baik"

- Hasan al-Basri

"Allah mengaitkan petunjuk dengan jihad. Jadi, orang yang paling sempurna petunjuknya ialah orang yang paling kuat (besar) jihadnya. Jihad yang paling wajib ialah jihad melawan jiwa, jihad melawan hawa nafsu, jihad melawan setan, dan jihad melawan dunia. Barangsiapa yang berjihad melawan keempat hal tersebut kerana Allah, maka Dia akan memberinya petunjuk kepada jalan-jalan keridhaan-Nya unutk kemudian membawanya ke syurga-Nya. Sebaliknya, barangsiapa yang tidak berjihad melawan keempat hal tersebut maka ia telah gagal mendapatkan petunjuk dan kegagalan itu tergantung kepada sejauhmana ia meninggalkan jihad"

-Ibnu al-Qayyim

" Aku pernah bertemu orang-orang yang lebih peduli terhadap waktunya daripada kepedulian kalian terhadap harta kalian"

-Hasan al-Basri

" Iman pasti lusuh di hati salah seorang diantara kalian, sebagaimana pakaian itu lusuh. Kerena itu mintalah kepada Allah untuk memperbaharui iman dalam hati kalian."

-H.R Thabrani dengan sanad yang hasan

"Tidak ada kehidupan, kecuali untuk para pencinta (Allah), di mana mata mereka memandang indah pihak yang mereka cintai, jiwa mereka tenang, hati mereka damai dan senang berdekatan dengan Nya dan senang dengan cinta-Nya. Di dalam hati terdapat kebutuhan yang tidak dapat ditutup kecuali dengan cinta dan kembali kepada-Nya. Barangsiapa yang tidak seperti itu, maka kehidupannya akan penuh dengan suka, kesedihan, dan kerugian."

-Ibnu al-Qayyim dalam Madarij as-Salikin

Quick fix?

Another Ramadhan in the UK.
I'm sure I'm going to miss this one day.
It's 3.40am.
Everyone in the house has finished having their suhur and performed Fajr prayer.

This week has been a very wierd week for me.
Rasa macam di awang-awangan.
Numb.

It's not often that Nana forgets her tutorials. Lol tipu.
Oh well. Maybe this whole adjusting to summer time is quite tiring.
You'll be fine soon :)

It's my CDU week. Clinical decisions Unit.
Three other students and I were to spend our time in the CDU.
I'm actually really grateful that I got teamed up with Justin, Lizzie, and Omar for this week. Kind and keen people.
This is the unit where new patients come in after either being referred by the A&E or GP due to cardio or resp problem.

Everytime I go onto different blocks, I always got amazed at how the doctors and surgeons can bring so much impacts to patients' lives.

When I was in Orthopaedic block, I  thought  orthopaedic surgeries were just amazing.
Patients who suffer with pain at doing things we have always taken for granted such as walking from the bedroom to the kitchen can walk pain free after a joint replacement. It's like having your life fixed in few hours! All praises go to Allah for the knowledge  and skills  He blessed into us.

When I was doing my General Surgery block, I thought resecting one's bowels was so mind-blowing. In fact I still do think so even after numbers of surgeries we had to watch.  Imagine how people living hundreds of years ago would think at the idea of having your waste products coming out a bag on your belly i.e via the stoma bag. 

And now that I'm doing cardio resp, I love the fact how doctors can make breathless patients feel better. Before this, when we learned our stuff at university, we learn about SOB  or breathless like it's a fictional term. Like it's a nobody stories. The only ways one can appreciate the severity of a symptom are one, when we have the symptoms ourselves and two, by sincerely listening to others. I had asthma so I think I can relate to breathless patients a bit. Remember feeling the breathlessness after running few miles? Imagine having that when you are just resting doing nothing, or when lying down. It's not okay at all. Some patients can't even complete their sentences. This could be due to numerous causes. With mix-and-match of meds and maneuvres alhamdulillah alot of patients feel better post-treatment. I especially love pleural tap procedure where pleural effusion or fluid in the chest is drained out. The sad things about cardioresp conditions are that many of the treatments are more of symptoms management than cure.

Looking at how I feel throughout my blocks so far, I find myself as a quick fix lover.
But dear self, do remember that not every problem or issue in this life has quick fixes. We are all doctors and our life issues are our different types of "patients".

But dear self, do remember that not every problem or issue in this life has quick fixes. 

Some can be resolved or cured. Some can only be approached or attended with symptom management and need consistent attentions and care. Some need  prophylaxis or preventive measures. Which group do you think our "eman" sits in?

It's real special

We are happy when it's 1st Jan New Year every single year although it's just another day with 24 hours. 

We are delighted over birthdays although its just another day of us getting older and we literally experience that on any other day that passes. 

On those days, we collectively as human beings choose to treat them special. We treat them meaningful with celebrations, and sometimes, resolutions to improve ourselves. 

We endorse those normal days as special hence they become ones. 

What if the One who makes you tell you about days which are special in His Eyes. Collection of special days endorsed by Him. 

It's Ramadhan now. 

When He mentioned the special month in His Book, it's special for real. When He promised Rayyan paradise for those who fast in the Hadith, Rayyan is real. 

Ramadhan Mubarak.

Celebrate real.

Pray real.

:)

Rindu sangat sebenarnya.

Tak Rindu kah dikau.

Kisah dahulu.

Saat diri mula-mula kisah tentang Tuhan.

Tak Rindu kah dikau,

Kisah dahulu

Tatkala diri menangis 

Sebab sengaja menghitung dosa

Tak rindu kah dikau

Kisah dahulu

Bila diri terlalu sensitif,

Menolak segala apa yang duduk di bibir jurang dosa,

Saat bila diri terlalu berhati-hati.

Tak rindu kah dikau,

Kisah dahulu,

Bila kisah umat jadi kisah peribadi.

Tak rindu kah?

Masih sudi?

Yakinlah

Kita mampu jatuh cinta lagi.

Drama

Dear me,
surprise yourself,
with self control.

Dear me,
forgive yourself,
and move on.

Dear me,
ask yourself,
to stay patient.

Dear me,
believe in yourself,
and function.

Dear me,
know yourself,
and prioritize.

Dear me,
know Him,
the One who's waiting.

Enough of drama cerekarama.
Enough.