Back in Leicester. Lame Title =='

Bismillah.

SO. Now i'm back in Leicester.

Leaving where the heart is, to where the mind is. Eh.

Metaforayanghiperbola.

Im now a Third Year Medical Student alhamdulillah :D

Our Phase One examination is the big assessment this time around. It's in January. My intention to revise during the summer break has been proven an epic fail, well, as wisely expected. My intention to do hafazan on Juz 30 has also been a disappointment. Boo sama dia. Haish, don't boo yourself.

I want to start afresh. With new spirit. Renewed intention.

I need to realize that this life is not for me to laze around.

There are so many things to learn.

So many things to explore.

So many responsibilities to fulfill.

So many books to read,

So many people to meet,

So many ilm to earn and practise,

Akhirat itu pasti. Mati itu pasti. Tapi, preparation x nampak pun? ngaa nangis..

Tahu FB je setiap hari.

My summer break

Eid

Alhamdulillah. The Eid celeb was as great as always. Great but Well, actually I have also been thinking  about the whole celebration. What does Eid supposed to mean?

Being an annual celebration (referring to just Eid-ul-Fetri here), people thus treat it with a set of yearly routines. 

You buy baju raya only 'cause not buying baju raya doesn't make raya feels raya
You buy kuih raya as you can't have empty table in the living room, only to end up having lots of kuih unfinished as Eid month comes to its end,
You visit the same houses each year, only to shake hands and eat while your parents do the talking with the fellow relatives whom if you meet on the streets, you would hardly recognize or greet.

First of all, this is no doubt a very obvious over-generalization. But without being cautious, we can easily be trapped in that robot-like soul-less, meaningless routine. hah.

Secondly, I think talking about Syawal is incomplete without mentioning Ramadhan. If you really think about syawal, it's a celebration for the Muslims. Subhanallah. How can you make a meaningful celebration as just a set of routines without putting your heart in it? 

I'm not writing the meaning or fadhilat of Syawal month here. But i'd just like to say that as Malaysians, we have very excellent Malay cultural tradition embedded in our Islamic practices which alhamdulillah helps us to practise what Islam has promoted to us to do (e.g ziarah menziarahi, open house etc). Sadly, however, the lack of knowledge and right intention in doing all the practices will cost us to lose the fruit of the celebration.

This is what I think I should do in the next Syawal if I have the chance to get to it:

1. Muhasabah on my Amal throughout Ramadhan.

2. Buy modest baju raya which i can wear in other occasions (x membazir this way), and kick out the intention to boast.

3. Buy at least one baju raya for a poor person.

4. Buy good, tasty kuih raya which my guests can enjoy rather than just cukup syarat. If still have balance towards the end of the month, make it as snacks when watching tv or studying.

5. Talk and ask khabar, know names and stories about relatives met in each house visited.

6. Donate some of the duit raya earned.

Okay. thats the raya part. Saja. Rasa nak bermuhasabahsarawak.

#notsodeep

Refer next post for tips on Japan trip.

Menunggu?

HADITH NABI S.A.W

SHAHIH RIYADHUS SHOLIHIN

ISTIQAMAH

Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah r.a ia berkata;

"Bahawasanya Rasulullah saw pernah bersabda, Bersegeralah kamu beramal sebelum datangnya tujuh perkara: apakah kamu sampai menunggu datangnya kemiskinan yang melupakan, atau kekayaan yang dapat menimbulkan kesombongan, sakit yang dapat mengendorkan semangat, tua renta yang dapat melemahkan, mati yang dapat menyudahi segala-galanya, atau menunggu datangnya dajjal padahal ia adalah seburuk-buruknya sesuatu yang ditunggu. Atau menanti datangnya hari kiamat, padahal ia sangat berat dan menakutkan." HR - Tarmidzi, ia berkata hadith ini hasan (2306)

Dua dekad dan hari baru

Dua dekad hidup berlalu
Ragam hidup, bukan satu dua,
Dua dekad jantung bertalu
Aku tahu, aku kian tua
...masa makin tipis, hidup kian nipis

Dua dekad yang lalu,
Sangkaku bertuju,
Menara gading  kuimpi,
Kucuma perlu membaca fakta
Ranking diatur antara makhluk sebaya
Makin tinggi baris namaku,
Makin mulia. Selesai sangkaku.
Dua dekad itu.

Entah mengapa,
Ada satu ketika,
Antara ribuan fikiran yang bertamu,
Ada mereka,
Bicaranya menyanjung Tuhan,
Gerak lakunya buatku segan.

Kadang kurasa aneh,
Tatkala dunia mahukan mudah,
Mereka mengejar susah,
Sangkaku, mereka mudik ke hulu
Gusarku, mereka bakal menempah pilu.

Tak kusangka,
yang bermudik ke hulu melawan arus fitrah itu bukan mereka.
Yang menempah pilu itu bukan si insan-insan aneh.
Tapi majoriti ahlul dunya.
Termasuk aku.

Siapalah aku.
Untuk dipilih melihat pilihan
Antara mudik arus fitrah dan arus hawa
Antara manusia aneh dan ahli dunia,
Antara hari baruku dan dua dekad lalu.
Antara ranking di mata insan dan taraf dimata tuhan
Namun.
Siapalah Dia untuk dinafi sifat kasihnya.
Bilamana Dia memilih aku,
Dia Paling Tahu.

22:78

Blessings

Alhamdulillah.
Sometimes we think about the things we don't get.
Till we forget about the blessings He has given and is giving to us.
Even if they are small little pleasures.
Small pleasures that if are not present,
will make the day less good.

Alhamdulillah.
For waking me up fajr,
For giving me breakfast,
For allowing me catch all the buses I need to board,
For helping me feel comfortable with my hitcom groupmates,
For giving me the feel to smile,
Coz I know sometimes a smile just has its own timing and mood swing.

Alhamdulillah.
For the fear of failing,
For the influency in conversing,
For the awkwardness when interacting,
For the confusion when deciding,
Coz  I know without them, I shall be in complacency and that ain't good.
At least I know within me, there's something to work on.
And with that, I know I definitely need You.

Allah.

Selfish world

Aku berjaya
Dunia mahu tahu
Aku terdaya
Dunia tumpang mahu
Aku hilang daya
Dunia taknak tahu
Aku hilang cahaya
Tiada peduli.
Wahai.

Do You Really Want Paradise - Abdur-Raheem McCarthy

Lemas

Aku tahu.
Aku sudah tertimbus.
Pasir tekanan.
Debu sangkaan.
Ditiup angin diam nan licik,
Hari demi hari.

Aku tahu,
Aku sudah masuk kembali.

Terliput dengan cengkerang
Tertanam dalam pasir.
Mujur lemas mula rasa.
Moga lemas mengajar rasa
Rasa mahu bebas.