Once a stream

If my tarbiyah is a small river

I wonder what colour it is now,

left stagnant blocked, untouched,

leaving chance for the blowing ashes.

I wonder what state it is now,

Is it cold uninviting,

Or rather now an inkling to different sorts of invitees.

Maybe this is a help.

Maybe this is a test.

For how long, love?

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Al-Aswad lbn Hilal reported: As we were walking with Mu’adh bin Jabal one day, he said, 

‘Let us sit down for a while to meditate on Allah.’

I miss having friends to sit down and talk about Allah.

Maybe Allah wants me to correct my niyah.

Maybe Allah wants me to practise what I have learned before.

Maybe Allah wants me to work extra hard to remember him and and continue finding my own usrah.

There are other ways of remembering Him, I know.

but I guess I'm just too scared that I'm not strong enough.
Please make doa for me.

Maybe I should try to practise the doa' taught by Rasulullah SAW to Muadz:

‘O Allah help me in remembering You, in offering thanks to You, and in worshiping You properly.”

Ps: I am much thankful that Allah blessed me with a lifetime naqib though. Despite my other half's busy housemanship, Alhamdulillah he's there to be my Naqib cum usrahmate. Jazakallahukhayr my dearest. 

Nieces

It's sweetness having to see a lovely girl and a cute baby girl as you return from work.
My new nieces, Naurah and Nailah are just so adorable.

May both of you grow to be solehah, and great loving daugthers to your parents. and great nieces to cik Nana please!

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I'm looking for my grit.
Soon.
Soon.

Orientation weeks have ended.
Things are stable and pleasant subhanallah.
It's time for empowerment.

My other half is now working in Hosp Sg Buloh alhamdulillah. And I've just graduated few weeks back. Sooo many good things to be grateful for! Alhamdulillah. doakan keberkatan Allah buat kami!

The track

I stood there watching as fathers, mothers, children, brothers, sisters, and others to others entered the train. The train from Abberswyth to Birmingham. Busy souls with myriads of goals and destinations. With different emotions and different sort of things going on in their lives.

I trailed my gaze along the rail  track till the steel seemed to disappear into the bushes where it bends.

"Do know, Nana,
What's straight on, isn't without bend.
But as long as you have your track, you'll get to where you should be."

Alhamdulillah.
Life has been so blessed with goodness,
Now shared,
With a gentle soul with a big heart.

Allahu,
May our marriage be a source of happiness
And most importantly a source of what needed to keep on the track despite the bends.
From You and to You.
Bismillah.

Please pray for us that our marriage be blessed with sakina, mawaddah, and rahmah

S's N

...

Sayup talu tapak menyapa
Taman rapi tempat menjadi
Kuncup semalu saat disapa
Bukan sepi tiada sudi.

Dingin sedang bayu merembat,
Embun sedang persis berkantung,
Jernih kadang tak terlihat,
Kasih sering tak terhitung.

Vending machine

Almost is a prod,
Or rather a sword.

Almost is a hope,
Or perhaps a slope.

Almost is what it is.
When you wished
Yet it withered when it's either
Not Nil a coin
Not Broken of the machine
But Press the wrong button
Hence wrong what hits the bin.

Almost.
Yet all the steps are wishes come true
So it's fine
I thank you.

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Tawakul - Trust Allah A Powerful Story - Ahmed Jibril

Whoever put trust in Allah,

He will suffice him.

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