Adulthood

So this is adulthood.

When I need to do or to be such and such to "a certain extent".

And that "extent" is so uncertain.

So this is adulthood.

When the line between this and that gets finer and finer.

Line I can hardly see nor feel.

Between being confident and being cocky,

Between being positive and being in denial,

Between being careful and being too picky.

So this is adulthood,

When black and white aren't that realistic,

And greyscale being the standard of the reality.

So this is adulthood.

When one can get lost so easily.

Ends up clueless and in despair.

Regardless,

there IS such thing as a potentially good adulthood,

one we can hopefully one day reminisce on and smile at.

one where we can be more certain of what the "extent" is,

one where we see the fine line more clearly,

one where we can hopefully choose the best tone of grey.

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That potentially good adulthood is one which can only be crafted with guidance from your Maker, and that guidance should be sought NOT in a one-off reading or one-off doa or whatever effort that is. 

"One-off" rule just doesn't apply. 

It needs continuous effort till we die.

and we need good environment.
Regardless of how strong we are,
Regardless of how we confided in ourselves to just mix and not blend,
We are sponges which absorb.
Our surroundings is where we immerse in.
And that becomes our nature.
And that shapes how we identify ourselves.
Whether we realize it or not.