A hunch of a heart

I can't stop to wonder,

How far does a hunch pack a punch?
Or a feel make a seal.

And I end up doing what I do best.
To pack up and watch the rest.

A work in progress

I feel like I'm so insensitive towards people's feelings. And selfish too.
I'm sorry. Didn't mean to hurt any heart in any way.
Working on myself, people.


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Baru balik UK, sadly to find that my flower plants are dying.
Just done trimming. and changing pots.
Please. Please hidup kembali.
Please berbunga semula.
Kamu-kamu simbol harapan.

Live to give

I think many people would agree that Syed Azmi has been inspirational as a humanitarian/volunteering figure.

I envy at how he helps so many people. To think what is right, and to do what he thinks he can do at his best. Not to think for too long. Focus on solutions and not just the problems. Focus on his capacity and others' capacity which he can recruit now. As in now. He couldn't care less about bureaucracy. Paper work is not his thing. He does what he thinks can help.

And most importantly, he helps those most fragile. The kids on pedophile cases. The gelandangan people. Promoted inter-religion programmes. Not forgetting, the free market efforts. He did things yang most of us know pun are good, but we stopped at knowing. And the programmes are not geniusly new or out of the world. Simple actions, but important remedies to problems. Little by little, it helps. And with his influence now to Malaysians, alhamdulillah the effects are surely not little.

Sure he's not perfect in his actions/causes but he makes Malaysians see how helping people is about knowing what you want to help on, and just do it. Just do it. Membuat kebajikan is easy.

You're not the only one,

But you're still one.

You cannot do everything,

But you can do something.

In my journey from being an idealist to a realist, you're a great source of inspiration, brother.

Also envy at few other individuals I'm blessed to know, whose life is dedicated at giving. How can you all be so noble. It all starts with an intention. Go for it :)

Jewels

Ayah kata diri kita ada tiga:
- siapa kita pada pandangan kita
- siapa kita pada pandangan orang lain
- siapa kita yang sebenarnya. Ini biasanya datang bila kita dalam keadaan tertekan/stress. When we are pushed to the limit.

Wan kerdau kata
- fikir banyak-banyak sebelum bercakap. Perkataan baik manusia akan ingat. Tapi perkataan buruk, mereka ingat lebih lama.

Mak kata
- banyak benda yang tak terbukti dan tak terbayang dengan kata.
Experience je and belajar.
- lepas saya mengadu takut nak jadi doktor sebab i'm so slow and ask her if she thinks i am, mak kata "nana ni organized orangnya, sebab tu nana ambil masa buat benda". Oh maa, you said it too kindly.

Anyway tengah cuti.
Banyak masa.
Ye ke.

Insomnia

Apa rahsia
paluan hati tiada bunyi
tatapan mata tanpa cahaya
Mungkin cuma kesan kopi
Atau punya makna makni

Cerita wahai hati.
Apa cerita mahuan.
Cerita duhai tuhan.
Apa kisah teka teki.

Us

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Teach us that's fine,

For we too want to learn.

But do watch for the line,

Ask not what not earned.

Try sometimes,

our shoes.

Tight or loose they may be.

Rest once from le comfy.

See sometimes,

through our shades.

Dim or dark they could seem.

See once with mere beams.

If you can't make things better,

don't make it any bitter.

You despise what seem like a condition,

you forgot it's a repercussion.

Jejak Rasul 2015 AsSalam - Saudara dari Korea (Bagian 1)

Paling tersentuh dengan dialog Imam bila menyentuh tentang Mualaf di Korea yang mengalami kesulitan setelah memeluk Islam.

" Some who newly convert find it very hard as they are following their old habit sometimes. They find it very hard. But those who try and know what's the taste of iman like, they will follow it (the religion) insya Allah"