Quick fix?

Another Ramadhan in the UK.
I'm sure I'm going to miss this one day.
It's 3.40am.
Everyone in the house has finished having their suhur and performed Fajr prayer.

This week has been a very wierd week for me.
Rasa macam di awang-awangan.
Numb.

It's not often that Nana forgets her tutorials. Lol tipu.
Oh well. Maybe this whole adjusting to summer time is quite tiring.
You'll be fine soon :)

It's my CDU week. Clinical decisions Unit.
Three other students and I were to spend our time in the CDU.
I'm actually really grateful that I got teamed up with Justin, Lizzie, and Omar for this week. Kind and keen people.
This is the unit where new patients come in after either being referred by the A&E or GP due to cardio or resp problem.

Everytime I go onto different blocks, I always got amazed at how the doctors and surgeons can bring so much impacts to patients' lives.

When I was in Orthopaedic block, I  thought  orthopaedic surgeries were just amazing.
Patients who suffer with pain at doing things we have always taken for granted such as walking from the bedroom to the kitchen can walk pain free after a joint replacement. It's like having your life fixed in few hours! All praises go to Allah for the knowledge  and skills  He blessed into us.

When I was doing my General Surgery block, I thought resecting one's bowels was so mind-blowing. In fact I still do think so even after numbers of surgeries we had to watch.  Imagine how people living hundreds of years ago would think at the idea of having your waste products coming out a bag on your belly i.e via the stoma bag. 

And now that I'm doing cardio resp, I love the fact how doctors can make breathless patients feel better. Before this, when we learned our stuff at university, we learn about SOB  or breathless like it's a fictional term. Like it's a nobody stories. The only ways one can appreciate the severity of a symptom are one, when we have the symptoms ourselves and two, by sincerely listening to others. I had asthma so I think I can relate to breathless patients a bit. Remember feeling the breathlessness after running few miles? Imagine having that when you are just resting doing nothing, or when lying down. It's not okay at all. Some patients can't even complete their sentences. This could be due to numerous causes. With mix-and-match of meds and maneuvres alhamdulillah alot of patients feel better post-treatment. I especially love pleural tap procedure where pleural effusion or fluid in the chest is drained out. The sad things about cardioresp conditions are that many of the treatments are more of symptoms management than cure.

Looking at how I feel throughout my blocks so far, I find myself as a quick fix lover.
But dear self, do remember that not every problem or issue in this life has quick fixes. We are all doctors and our life issues are our different types of "patients".

But dear self, do remember that not every problem or issue in this life has quick fixes. 

Some can be resolved or cured. Some can only be approached or attended with symptom management and need consistent attentions and care. Some need  prophylaxis or preventive measures. Which group do you think our "eman" sits in?

It's real special

We are happy when it's 1st Jan New Year every single year although it's just another day with 24 hours. 

We are delighted over birthdays although its just another day of us getting older and we literally experience that on any other day that passes. 

On those days, we collectively as human beings choose to treat them special. We treat them meaningful with celebrations, and sometimes, resolutions to improve ourselves. 

We endorse those normal days as special hence they become ones. 

What if the One who makes you tell you about days which are special in His Eyes. Collection of special days endorsed by Him. 

It's Ramadhan now. 

When He mentioned the special month in His Book, it's special for real. When He promised Rayyan paradise for those who fast in the Hadith, Rayyan is real. 

Ramadhan Mubarak.

Celebrate real.

Pray real.

:)

Rindu sangat sebenarnya.

Tak Rindu kah dikau.

Kisah dahulu.

Saat diri mula-mula kisah tentang Tuhan.

Tak Rindu kah dikau,

Kisah dahulu

Tatkala diri menangis 

Sebab sengaja menghitung dosa

Tak rindu kah dikau

Kisah dahulu

Bila diri terlalu sensitif,

Menolak segala apa yang duduk di bibir jurang dosa,

Saat bila diri terlalu berhati-hati.

Tak rindu kah dikau,

Kisah dahulu,

Bila kisah umat jadi kisah peribadi.

Tak rindu kah?

Masih sudi?

Yakinlah

Kita mampu jatuh cinta lagi.

Drama

Dear me,
surprise yourself,
with self control.

Dear me,
forgive yourself,
and move on.

Dear me,
ask yourself,
to stay patient.

Dear me,
believe in yourself,
and function.

Dear me,
know yourself,
and prioritize.

Dear me,
know Him,
the One who's waiting.

Enough of drama cerekarama.
Enough.

Tidur dalam sedar

Tak apa.
Tak lama.
Hembuskan rasa
Maknai jika.

Sudah kau lihat.
Daratan memijak air.
Maka derap bukan bunyi tekak.

Siapa kata tak benar
Siapa bilang igauan
Kau sedar.

Renungan Kehidupan: Dahsyatnya Fitnah Wanita - Ustadz Firanda Andirja, M...

Mainpoints:

1. Rasulullah pernah bersabda, mafhumnya "Takutlah kalian kepada dunia. Takutlah kepada kepada wanita". Fitnah yang pertama kali melanda Bani Israel adalah disebabkan kaum wanita. Sabda Rasulullah, mafhumnya "Tak pernah aku tinggalkan satu fitnah yang lebih besar bagi kaum lelaki selain daripada fitnah kaum wanita". I'm sorry that the status or the narrators of the hadiths are not provided.



2. Sesungguhnya wanita itu adalah aurat. Saat wanita keluar daripada rumah, syaitan akan mengejarnya. Syaitan ingin menjadikan wanita sebagai sarana untuk memerangkap kaum lelaki.



3. Kisah Nabi Yusuf: Nabi Yusuf dilahirkan di Palestin. Setelah dibeli sebagai hamba, Nabi Yusuf telah dibawa ke Mesir.



Kisah Nabi Yusuf digoda oleh Zulaika berlaku ketika Nabi Yusuf masih muda remaja di Mesir, sebuah tempat yang bukan tempat asal kelahiran Nabi Yusuf. Hakikatnya, lebih mudah untuk seseorang pemuda untuk melakukan maksiat jika berada di tempat asing, yakni tempat yang tiada siapa mengenalinya. Tambahan pula, Nabi Yusuf digoda oleh seorang wanita yang cantik, berhias, dan kaya-raya. Bukanlah mudah untuk melawan godaan seperti itu, namun disebabkan keikhlasan dan doa Nabi Yusuf, Allah telah menyelamatkan Nabi Yusuf. Apa yang menjaga diri Nabi Yusuf ketika itu adalah ingatan Nabi Yusuf kepada keagungan Allah dan takutnya Nabi Yusuf pada siksaan Allah.



It's a good reminder for me and hopefully for everyone else too. There is always a better way of doing things. And the best and most dignified ways are those up to Allah's standard.



Allah sayang kita semua :)

My first day in the theatres

Yesterday we had site induction. Had photograph taken for the ID, got scrubbing teaching by LL (she's so friendly). And received list of operation which my surgeon will be leading for the next three days. I was planning to revise beforehand but men can only dream. T T .

After the meeting with mustawa 01, I got so sleepy and end up sleeping- didn’t revise anything.

Today is my full day in the theatres. I did not think that I would got as much break as I had today in between the surgeries/ procedures. Alhamdulillah. got time for lunch and pray. Mr M is my surgeon or consultant (?). Oh well Idk to be honest what everyone's tile or job role accurately. My surgeon's not that talkative, but he seems to be open and doesn't mind if I ask thim anything. That’s good. Coz I'm known to ask silly questions on anything which I'm confused on. Just wait for that. 

FY1 doctor, Dr S (I just called him S)was also helpful . Had it not for him, I may not have done as much. I may not have learnt that much. He reminded me to be vocal in asking questions or asking for teaching from my consultant. I got reminded many times about scrubbing related stuff like to put my hands in area between the navel and chest - the sterile area as they call it. OD said I can ask questions because in real life no one would voluntarily tell me information. I wish I know what to ask. Right, I really need to work on that.

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. All in all, today was good. So I watched an arthroscopy, 2 total hip replacement, and one knee replacement. I was allowed to hold the patient's leg and cutting the sutures thread, so Im taking that as a huge personal accomplishment for today lol. Thanks surgeons for trusting me on that. Cool story bro.

Improvement wise, I should know what I want to know. And the question is, how do I know that?